tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post8927666213014216121..comments2024-03-09T02:28:20.380-08:00Comments on Beatnheart: THE BIGGEST BLIZZARD...PART 8Beatnhearthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14825208509765183528noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-70648999167588144592010-05-31T16:07:18.764-07:002010-05-31T16:07:18.764-07:00You really had no choice but to return ?
heavy je...You really had no choice but to return ? <br />heavy jelly as we say here. <br /><br /> looking forward to the knight in shiny glasses.Elaine Prunty https://www.blogger.com/profile/15989507617909740870noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-59296155522585983652010-05-31T10:32:35.656-07:002010-05-31T10:32:35.656-07:00I miss him too. Beautiful Darling.
yvonneI miss him too. Beautiful Darling.<br /><br />yvonneLa Petite Galleryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09553902574516930172noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-44644516908579926622010-05-31T06:46:16.085-07:002010-05-31T06:46:16.085-07:00I know what you mean, Cynthia. Despite my mother&#...I know what you mean, Cynthia. Despite my mother's mistakes. I love and forgive her. It was hard to give myself the space to go ahead and be angry at her for what I needed, but I understand why she did the things she did as I see her life in the whole picture. I'll always be grateful for her and now I feel we are close. Thank you for sharing your heart. Thinking of you today :)me as i amhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14709343968813770150noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-87184547702086896672010-05-29T07:52:59.480-07:002010-05-29T07:52:59.480-07:00Friends, if you have a moment, stop by Paula’s blo...Friends, if you have a moment, stop by Paula’s blog (two posts up)...this awesome lady is going to walk The Camino Walk...well let her tell you the story...check it out!Beatnhearthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14825208509765183528noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-28475609479459149042010-05-29T01:18:02.360-07:002010-05-29T01:18:02.360-07:00The way you are putting this story together is won...The way you are putting this story together is wonderful Cynthia. It's gripping, sad/ happy has pathos and pain.<br />I love how you live us dangling want ing more, always a sign of a good story teller.<br />It's odd isn't is that we all go through so much when younger in our different ways that pays off when we get here. That enables us to be the people we are today. I know that my own journey had many difficulties along the way, and yet know I'm grateful as it allows me to be the me I am today.<br />love<br />xxFire Byrdhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05477692359400671374noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-51619097432119676952010-05-28T23:24:04.179-07:002010-05-28T23:24:04.179-07:00Alcoholism is a family desease passed on over gene...Alcoholism is a family desease passed on over generations.... You are wondefully made and whilst struggling so hard with dimmed light in your eyes, inside your inner light kept you going, made you survive all. Like Katie I am angry at your Mother - infused by my strong anger towards my mother. Obly now releasing it. You stay strong. Once again getting to know you a bit better and whuile readin along, getting to know myself a bit better too. Thanks fro being out there!Paulahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07241317042459836045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-55470352853718813882010-05-28T21:38:37.843-07:002010-05-28T21:38:37.843-07:00Oh Cynthia, the more we learn, the sadder it gets....Oh Cynthia, the more we learn, the sadder it gets. I too hope there is a happy ending to this. You couldn't make this up. I am glad to learn you have forgiven her, that is major. I have a father I need to forgive one day, it's a tough one. At least when anger subsides, it opens to the chance of forgiveness. Isn't it amazing how patterns continue to repeat themselves in some families? Abuse results in abuse....but then someone is strong enough to break the cycle. You have. My heart goes out to you. And thank you for your kind words and understanding about my little Chester. One day at a time. Big hug, RikiRiki Schumacherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09217573549011803012noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-50759640769395858282010-05-28T20:04:17.651-07:002010-05-28T20:04:17.651-07:00My Mother was also one of these girls....one of 10...My Mother was also one of these girls....one of 10 children, alcoholic abusive father, strict religious background...no one cared, no one guided her...that is why after all these years(she is 90 now!) I still love her and I do forgive her.. She just didn’t know how to change and stuck with what she knew to survive...Beatnhearthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14825208509765183528noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-2962050977692228562010-05-28T19:59:02.082-07:002010-05-28T19:59:02.082-07:00I think you are so brave and fearless to tell your...I think you are so brave and fearless to tell your life story here like this.<br /><br />But I know that it also has to be tremendously healing to you as well.<br /><br />Your words are so powerful, thank you for sharing your heart.Anne Loryshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06586805595011675799noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-85250530276098179922010-05-28T15:57:13.613-07:002010-05-28T15:57:13.613-07:00Cynthia, I do feel in my heart of hearts that this...Cynthia, I do feel in my heart of hearts that this should be a BOOK.<br /><br />So many women go thru this when we are young...especially those of us born before 1940....like I was.<br />Just nothing to look forward too... not being expected to go to college...or "amount to anything" on our OWN......just "get married"..and endure. <br />Having been brought up with no one who REALLY cares... a mother with too many children to feed and care for...a father who is so overwhelmed with the financial reponsibility of it all..NO ONE IS HAPPY....in fact they resent you for being born. <br />I was number 4 of 5 children. AND I was a GIRL...that was two strikes against me right off the bat..I soon would learn. <br />And they are suffering their own personal wounds as well. <br />So take is out on us. <br />I am sorry you had to endure this too. <br />It was so hard growing up without love and guidance that was beneficial to us. <br />I often think that is why I love my "delightful clutter"...( my things )they can be trusted....these "things" seem to love me back ....just for my loving them. ~JMOPO of course.<br /><br />But girl.... you and I survived and thrived..and that is the GOOD NEWS. <br /><br />Anxious to hear the rest of your story.<br /><br /><br />RoseRose ~Victorian Rose ~https://www.blogger.com/profile/07960402442706598886noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-85321800754791992192010-05-28T15:37:07.813-07:002010-05-28T15:37:07.813-07:00Wow, I am loving your thoroughly entrancing life s...Wow, I am loving your thoroughly entrancing life story. This is the stuff that legends, and movies, are made of. I can't wait for the next installment, of course, I know already know how you end up as a lovely and giving woman. Keep up the great writing!Sharonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07804759073542266127noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-17599059143253678812010-05-28T06:15:19.238-07:002010-05-28T06:15:19.238-07:00Oh Cynthia
the sins of the fathers.. or in this ca...Oh Cynthia<br />the sins of the fathers.. or in this case mothers... I agree with Pooch and glad to know your silver lining was just around the corner.. and sounds like in chapter 9.... Reading your story sounds so much like mine.. although i think if i were to write mine it would sound more like a bad country western song without the happy ending.. hahaha... looking forward to the next chapter.. xx JulieJulie@beingRUBYhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10424920655462727594noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-46185999375869167122010-05-27T15:38:16.549-07:002010-05-27T15:38:16.549-07:00Pfff what to say dear Cynthia - except that I'...Pfff what to say dear Cynthia - except that I'm with Pooch. We know there's a wonderful silver lining at the end. the boy - I want to know about the boy. It's disconcerting reading such an intimate tale about someone we are all ...getting to know as if it was a movie/book about a stranger. Just goes to show that the ties stretch long and far and we're all interconnected. Blessings Cynthia )Angehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02255310309447767848noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-52180588730864168582010-05-26T16:32:12.510-07:002010-05-26T16:32:12.510-07:00Next installment of your path to freedom. Very ha...Next installment of your path to freedom. Very hard, sweet gal. I can feel such pain and despair in your words....and you didn't know it would be OK. I so wish we could all go back to our miserable times and hug our younger selves, reassuring them. I wish I could have hugged you! Blessings gal....Chrishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08563162014346232631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-90843481850985791912010-05-26T09:05:34.934-07:002010-05-26T09:05:34.934-07:00dear beatnheart, i wanted to get to know you bette...dear beatnheart, i wanted to get to know you better now that we've had this amazing necklace situation, and so i came over to read this post and i have so many thoughts in repsonse, i don't know where to start. it's hard to tell how you feel about all this now in retrospect. but my personal internal response was anger at your mother. i'm sorry, and i don't know if you will mind my saying that. my perspective is surely influenced because my dad's self-destructiveness was always a big pull back for me. and it was hard to put my feelings first when his actions strongly demanded my pity and compassion. i cannot imagine what you went through. you would have been a good daughter no matter what. because you cared for them. going along with what they wanted was just their version of what they needed. but it was not fair of them to put you through this. maybe they were scared. but she was an adult. they should have wished you well as you journeyed into your own brave adulthood. instead of codependently holding you back. the people who love us and whom we love, i know we're not perfect and we do all make mistakes and i know it is within each of our abilities to forgive and move on. and i hope that you are at peace with her now and your past and everything that happened. and that you know you are a brave and strong person who made choices which led you to where you are today. and included in those choices are that you are a person who would go back to care for your mother even if it is not what you wanted to do. i'm sorry you had to put your dreams on hold. but i hope in the long run, you found them again, and that freedom you longed for. <br /><br />hugs and love to you~~~ <br /><br />oh, and by the way, i love neil young and joni mitchell :)me as i amhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14709343968813770150noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-75825017987808641332010-05-26T08:32:08.305-07:002010-05-26T08:32:08.305-07:00I just received the most amazing and cosmic respon...I just received the most amazing and cosmic response from my Giveaway winner Katie Mary. Take a moment to read her blog. http://sharingourspaces.blogspot.com/2010/05/bee-necklace.htmlBeatnhearthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14825208509765183528noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-89159822714009748412010-05-26T03:41:22.513-07:002010-05-26T03:41:22.513-07:00It's hard to comment on stories like this, so ...It's hard to comment on stories like this, so personal and painful...it can sound a bit trite to go well written, I can picture it just as you say it was....cause this is a real piece of you.<br />xxxxdebra@dustjackethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02397055465607649038noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-90354555305072691092010-05-26T02:24:37.601-07:002010-05-26T02:24:37.601-07:00Thanks for your continued transparency in sharing ...Thanks for your continued transparency in sharing your life. You are an encouragement. Blessings to you dear one.Just Be Realhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15815210059310140144noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-69680032236803649472010-05-25T23:31:15.790-07:002010-05-25T23:31:15.790-07:00Dear Cynthia,
Although your words hold a great dea...Dear Cynthia,<br />Although your words hold a great deal of sadness, I am thoroughly enjoying reading them. It is gripping. <br />It also brings me back down to earth with a resounding bump. It makes me realise just how lucky I have been. I can't wait for Part 9. XXXXJacqueline @ HOMEhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06154045482594773377noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-4668882889516746732010-05-25T22:46:32.403-07:002010-05-25T22:46:32.403-07:00Wow girl...look at you! 88 followers! And now we&...Wow girl...look at you! 88 followers! And now we're all tuned in for your cliff hanger. I hope that if there are young women out there that are in a similar situation as you were, they are tuning in and can find hope through your story. Hugs, PennyPK Studioshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06117425254544671376noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-15921553003474326012010-05-25T21:54:48.671-07:002010-05-25T21:54:48.671-07:00Yes, what a difficult road it was that lead you to...Yes, what a difficult road it was that lead you to where you are now. I can't wait to hear how you met "the boy". Would you have ever met him if you stayed in Arizona? I will have to wait and see I suppose. Looking forward to the next chapter - as always.jeanette from everton terracehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02025486213973874174noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-25771618806671184702010-05-25T19:48:03.904-07:002010-05-25T19:48:03.904-07:00Oh Cynthia that's too bad you had to go back b...Oh Cynthia that's too bad you had to go back because of your Mom. I feel so bad that you carried that guilt and then the priest goes and adds more guilt! You certainly were a 'lost' young woman. Look at you now though...'you've come a long way baby'! I hope you're feeling ok as I know writing this takes a lot out of you...you're a brave woman. I hope you're enjoying some nice spring weather before it get's HOT there. Take care my friend...Maura:)Maura @ Kisiwa Creek Photographyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10992187526413563417noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6345733717385036769.post-3017522935872502002010-05-25T17:12:03.425-07:002010-05-25T17:12:03.425-07:00Such a courageous act to write your story and I...Such a courageous act to write your story and I'm full of admiration for you. All that came before makes you who you are today and you seem to be in a great place now. Your jewelry is amazing, you play in a band and have a wonderful place to work in, so I know your story eventually has a happy ending. Thank you for sharing it with us.Daviniahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00816205028289012921noreply@blogger.com